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Another Day, Another Year...
I turned thirty about 4 minute ago
not quite sure how I feel
according to my mother I'm no longer trustworthy
[a reference to her hippy days]
[in the glorius 60s and 70s]
[where it was said "you couldnt trust anyone over 30"]
Of course I protested saying
"As if I ever was"
I've been gone from here a long time
and I'm not quite sure I'm ready to come back
but
I figured a momenteus occasion such as this
at least deserved an entry
turning thirty
in my general philosophy
is no big deal
I've never believed in celebrating my own birthday
it is a fact that I was born, and that is sufficent
but I suppose in another way
turning thirty is somewhat significant
as a child
turning thirty was beyond my comprehension
in fact prior to the last couple of years
I was fairly confident that'd I'd never live to see this day
given my general disposition towards taking risks
the odds were long indeed
so here I sit
wasting the few hours I have allotted myself for sleep
trying to put a finger on this thing
this ellusive twitch
which echoes inside me
thirty years
sounds like a long time
yet seems only a flash in the pan
I wonder how my fifteen year old self
would react to hearing how my life turned out
not that I have any complaints
for the most part I'm pretty happy
with what I have done and accomplished
sure many things havent happened how I expected or planned
and god knows these thirty years
have not been without a significant price
in blood and humanity
I suppose in my mind
there is something of a meaningless significance to it all
thirty
thirty
like it demands some tribute
or atleast
to grow the fuck up
but I remain
a coward hiding behind my own courage
striving to overcome outwardly
so that I can avoid the reality within
bah fuck it
even I dont know what I am rambling on about now
so
without making any sense or even approaching a point
I'll take my leave of you
love love
your plural
not quite sure how I feel
according to my mother I'm no longer trustworthy
[a reference to her hippy days]
[in the glorius 60s and 70s]
[where it was said "you couldnt trust anyone over 30"]
Of course I protested saying
"As if I ever was"
I've been gone from here a long time
and I'm not quite sure I'm ready to come back
but
I figured a momenteus occasion such as this
at least deserved an entry
turning thirty
in my general philosophy
is no big deal
I've never believed in celebrating my own birthday
it is a fact that I was born, and that is sufficent
but I suppose in another way
turning thirty is somewhat significant
as a child
turning thirty was beyond my comprehension
in fact prior to the last couple of years
I was fairly confident that'd I'd never live to see this day
given my general disposition towards taking risks
the odds were long indeed
so here I sit
wasting the few hours I have allotted myself for sleep
trying to put a finger on this thing
this ellusive twitch
which echoes inside me
thirty years
sounds like a long time
yet seems only a flash in the pan
I wonder how my fifteen year old self
would react to hearing how my life turned out
not that I have any complaints
for the most part I'm pretty happy
with what I have done and accomplished
sure many things havent happened how I expected or planned
and god knows these thirty years
have not been without a significant price
in blood and humanity
I suppose in my mind
there is something of a meaningless significance to it all
thirty
thirty
like it demands some tribute
or atleast
to grow the fuck up
but I remain
a coward hiding behind my own courage
striving to overcome outwardly
so that I can avoid the reality within
bah fuck it
even I dont know what I am rambling on about now
so
without making any sense or even approaching a point
I'll take my leave of you
love love
your plural
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But alas, happy birthday cheri.
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xox - You will always be beautiful. 30 is a good thing.
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I'd mock you, but turning 30 must be rough enough on its own.
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Happy birthday my lovely.
By the by..
&
zaiah
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happy birthday
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Happy Birthday!
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striving to overcome outwardly
so that I can avoid the reality within
nice.
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but 30 is a good age - smart enough to know better, young enough not to give a damn...
so happy birthday! hope your year is excellent.
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Hope this year is amazing, and hope you come back here and share with us again soon.
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JC
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