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just checked my voicemail for the first time in a week
last night my ex called me she sounded strange
like she was making great effort to sound casual and failing

she inquired how I was and asked me to give her a call sometime so we could chat

cant say the idea appeals much to me

herein lies the problem

I have a strong belief about treating people with basic human dignity
regardless of any past between us while I fail frequently to uphold
this standard it is something I strive for.

I strive not to play games with people to let them always know
exactly where they stand with me this must be balanced
with the understanding that one should not be unnecessarily cruel

if you call me, no matter how much I despise you I will call you back
at the very least to hear what you have to say and say no, please don't call me again

If I say I will call you ...I will period.

and lastly an oath I made once
a long time ago not to her specifically
but in general to any woman
who manages to put up with me

any of my ex's who finds themselves in trouble
which they can not deal can call me and I will ensure
the safe resolution to the best of my ability

of course with the exception of one woman before her
this was never an issue as I am on friendly terms with all of my ex's

something didn't sound right in her voice, call me selfish
but I would rather not know what

anyone care to share some wisdom with me?

Comments

I admire your resolve..

[zaiah.livejournal.com]

I finally have come back to my journal after avoiding it for a while - and reading this.. found I wanted to say something, but did not know what to say. After doing my usual nightly activities - I came across the words that describe best what I was meaning for you to hear when you asked for a response. As always, you are going to make the best choice for you.

"None of us can decide not to be in a relationship. Try not being in a relationship with your breath! Life is about relationship. We're going to be in relationship anyway so our task is to learn how to experience a deeper, more profound meaning in the relationships that we
are in, the greatest of which is our relationship with God."

Take care my snow biffing friend.