About the girl

[plural]

she called me today
and spent the next forty five minutes
convincing herself why she needed to run away

not sure
how to feel about it

as this time I feel she was honest
with me about why she was doing it

don't know
how to overcome
her fears

don't think I can

We are going to take some time off
and see if we can be friends
but I am not all that optimistic

there is simply too strong a connection
an attraction between us
to simply hang out

without both of us going insane

and
for my part
I haven't yet decided
what to do

watching her run
do I chase
or
wave
wishing her the best


I didn't love her
but recently
I had begun to think
that
I could


fuck

Comments

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My idealist theory: If it's so hard to maintain something/someone, it might not be worth the effort. Love is supposed to be easy and come naturally.

My realist theory: If the gain of pursuing something is equal or greater than the risk, than it's worth sacrificing a little of yourself for.

These are very contradictory ideas, but I find that when I apply both of them in turn to a situation, it helps me sort out how I *really* feel about what's at hand.

It's hard for me to turn my back on love; I take it where and when I can find it.

Anyhow, sorry to ramble. The "fuck" at the end was all too familiar.