Truth about people?

[plural]

Can people change?

or more importantly

Can I?

some of you here
have known me for three years
a few even longer than that
and
many for varying periods shorter

some of you know me quite intimately
some casually

so I ask you

I know I have learned an incredible amount
about myself and how I interact with the world
in that time
but
has anything really changed?

am I the same arrogant foppish bastard
I have always been?

have you observed growth or decline in my person?

or is it just the same old shit
day after day

how many of you consider me a friend
versus a source of entertaining banter
or even both

What would be the one change you think I need to make most?


shoot from the hip
compliments and bullshit not requested
and
don't worry
the meaner you are
the more straight forward you are
the
more I will
appreciate it

cause if there is one thing I have learned

it takes guts to be a complete bastard

but in case some of you lack it
I have turned on anonymous comments
[and turned off IP tracking]
for this post
*grin*

anyway
I gotta run
but I was pondering this as I got ready tonight
and thought I would fire off a quick post

love love

me

Comments

[damion.livejournal.com]

Mmh.
    The biggest, and most often recurring, problem that I've seen is the cognitive dissonance between the person you perceive yourself to be, and the person you think you have a duty to be. While that may be kind of obvious, I've never really understood why you feel that huge obligation sitting on your shoulders. If I remember correctly, you've talked about how your grandfather ran the family and kept it together, and that it's your goal to do the same. But does the family really need that?
    So, though it seems somewhat ironic, I'd say that the thing you need to change most about yourself is that you need to live for yourself and be honest about it.
    As for how much you've changed, from my perspective, it's been the same old shit. The shit, however, is gold.