Truth about people?

[plural]

Can people change?

or more importantly

Can I?

some of you here
have known me for three years
a few even longer than that
and
many for varying periods shorter

some of you know me quite intimately
some casually

so I ask you

I know I have learned an incredible amount
about myself and how I interact with the world
in that time
but
has anything really changed?

am I the same arrogant foppish bastard
I have always been?

have you observed growth or decline in my person?

or is it just the same old shit
day after day

how many of you consider me a friend
versus a source of entertaining banter
or even both

What would be the one change you think I need to make most?


shoot from the hip
compliments and bullshit not requested
and
don't worry
the meaner you are
the more straight forward you are
the
more I will
appreciate it

cause if there is one thing I have learned

it takes guts to be a complete bastard

but in case some of you lack it
I have turned on anonymous comments
[and turned off IP tracking]
for this post
*grin*

anyway
I gotta run
but I was pondering this as I got ready tonight
and thought I would fire off a quick post

love love

me

Comments

[nandan.livejournal.com]

Truth...to paraphrase Jack Nickolson...I can't handle the truth.

Okay. I think I consider you a friend, although I suspect you wouldn't think much of me if we met. I suspect that you only like very pretty women, and I would not meet your criterion. Such is the way of the world. At times I perceive a gentle, open and generous person, but one who is masculine, intelligent, and has wide experience of the world. Those are all attractive attributes to me in a friend.

I also sense that there is something you are holding back. You are cryptic, at times, which is more than understandable in a public internet diary. Sometimes I think I can guess what may be behind the cryptic nature of your entries, but of course, this is the internet, so I am most likely wrong.

As for growth...I haven't known you long enough to see any change. Perhaps there is growing despair about your ability to order your life (wife, job, kids) to your satisfaction.