sins of the son

[plural]

if in
concept
someone can
succeed

beyond ones wildest dreams
then
is it
possible
that someone can
fail
beyond ones wildest dreams

that seems
to be
my life

or maybe
things aren't so

what do I know

I look in the mirror
and
a little confused boy
smiles at me

this world
is so immense
I only survive
by ignoring
its size and
complexity

breathe
in
out
repeat
until it
feels comfortable

but
it
never does

how long
does it take
to feel at home
in ones skin?

who am I
who are you

I ask the boy
but
neither of us
can do anything
but smile sadly

I suffer
from unrest
an ailment of the soul
other suffer
my intolerable
presence

for I am
pompous
pretentious
selfish
and most of
all
a bore

I never noticed
until it was
pointed out to me
but
I
only laugh at
my own jokes

I am
a miserable
pathetic little man
with delusions
of grandeur
and just enough
charm
and bullshit
to pull it off
which
only disgusts me
more

its all crap really
same old shit
respewed and reformed
new words saying
the same things,
just my general
disgust
for myself
and the world
around me
mixed in with
an overrated sense
of self importance and
exaggerated profundity

fuck you
fuck me

mea culpa

Comments

reminds me of many years ago....

[mnemosyne.livejournal.com]

whenever we didn't do our hw or forgot it at home, my latin lit teacher would make us stand on a chair and say "mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa" in front of the entire class.

Re: reminds me of many years ago....

[kei.livejournal.com]

me too.
except whenever we slacked off in your latin class, my teacher would go "terra firma chris, terra firma." in a high squiky voice.

[mnemosyne.livejournal.com]

salve. :) hmm...and that is about all i can remember right now from this rusty sleep deprived head of mine.

hmph

[savonarola.livejournal.com]

perhaps there is something
in the air that no one knows
about but just feels? me thinks
that perhaps this thing
strikes at only a few.

bev sir?

Re: hmph

[plural.livejournal.com]

drinks?
I would be honored

tonight or tomorrow?
perhaps marcus's?

I will give you a jingle on the home line

Re: hmph

[(Anonymous)]

capital club around
nine fifteen sound good?