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been a long time since I updated here
thought I would give it a go

it feels rather foreign now
like waking up in bed with a stranger
and not having a clue how they got there

actually thats not a good metaphor
as that particular sensation is hardly foreign

not something I'm proud of mind you
but I've done my share of stupid things
[and probably yours too]

I've been very slammed with projects lately
I'm sure it will all work out as I desire
just feeling a bit of stress over it

I gave myself tonight off
went out and played some pool
hung out with the boys
hung out with the girls
then hung out with most anyone

drank far more than I usually allow myself
but all in all had a good time

doesnt it just figure
that only when I am working a plan to leave this town
do I start to develop a group of friends

oh well
just another thing to leave behind
story of my life it seems

leaving things behind

I have this fantasy of settling down
having a wife and children
but
in all honesty it is just that

a fantasy

I've never been the sort to stick around
stay in one place very long

I'd like to say I knew why
from time to time I have one rationale or another

but in the end they are just that

rationales

and in the end
I'm just as full of shit as everyone else

cry me a fucking river

I am oft to say
that it is good to be the king

and I suppose by comparison
it is indeed
god knows I wouldnt want most of your lives
but
at times it wears on me

expectations
mostly my own granted
but a handful of those of family and friends

no matter how much better
I do something than the rest of you
I always expect more of myself

I was playing pool with a friend tonight
he broke
dropped three balls after the break
then missed

I ran the table
dropping all seven of my balls
it was absolutely beautiful
but after the last shot
I was cursing because I did not leave the cue ball
where I wanted in order to shoot the eight

he told me to shut the fuck up
and
pocket the eight

I, of course, obliged

to be clear
while I'm no slouch a pool
I am also no where near an ace either
running a table like that
happens once, maybe twice a year
when the planets align
and I slip into the zone

most games, I get a good run
of three or four balls
and peicemeal the rest in ones and twos

aww fuck

I dont remember where I was going with this
my one track mind must be defective
too bad it is out of warranty

oh
and in other completely unrelated news

not that this will make the slightest bit of sense
to any of you, save one

but anyway

the email was sent
the reply was recieved
the answer was yes