In my secret life
Mar. 29th, 2005 12:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pluralI saw you this morning
you were moving so fast
cant seem to loosen my grip on the past
I miss you so much
there is no one in sight
and we're still making love
in my secret life
----
Leonard Cohen - In my secret life
----
I see her
from time to time
just out of the reach of my arms
through heavy eyelids burdened with sleep
she appears
standing there
watching me the way she always did
that soft bemused smile
a knowing smile
which only a woman can master
and even then
only when
she knows the man she loves
better than he knows himself
my mind still foggy with sleep
I reach for her
forgetting those four hours
and the ten years since
but I am unable to close that short distance
I struggle but that only serves
to yank me from the last vestiges of sleep
and from that netherworld
halfway between waking and slumber
in whose brief moments
we can be together
its not a trick
you senses are decieving
a fitful dream
the morning will exhaust
say goodbye to Alexdranda leaving
then say goodbye to Alexandra lost
even though she sleep upon your satin
even though she wakes you with a kiss
do not say the moment was imagined
do not stoop to strategies like this
as someone long prepared for this to happen
go firmly to the window
drink it in
exquisite music
Alexandra laughing
you first commitments
tangible again
and you who had
the honor of her evening
and by that honor
had your own restored
say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Alexandra leaving with her lord
----
Leonard Cohen - Alexandra Leaving
----
I find it hard
to describe what we had
to describe what she was
and what I was with her
She was not my first love
nor my last
I loved girls before her
and women after
some of them very deeply
but only she ever penetrated me
not by my choice
nor with my consent
but nonetheless she was there
with that knowing smile
waiting for me to recognize what she knew all along
it was she who crowned me king
anointed me with her adoration
and with a kiss upon my forehead
she forgave my trespasses
she was my redeemer
my queen and consort
in truth,
what little of it I can bear to possess
it is not how much I love her
nor how deeply I love her
that is the least bit remarkable
but how she loved me
you were moving so fast
cant seem to loosen my grip on the past
I miss you so much
there is no one in sight
and we're still making love
in my secret life
----
Leonard Cohen - In my secret life
----
I see her
from time to time
just out of the reach of my arms
through heavy eyelids burdened with sleep
she appears
standing there
watching me the way she always did
that soft bemused smile
a knowing smile
which only a woman can master
and even then
only when
she knows the man she loves
better than he knows himself
my mind still foggy with sleep
I reach for her
forgetting those four hours
and the ten years since
but I am unable to close that short distance
I struggle but that only serves
to yank me from the last vestiges of sleep
and from that netherworld
halfway between waking and slumber
in whose brief moments
we can be together
its not a trick
you senses are decieving
a fitful dream
the morning will exhaust
say goodbye to Alexdranda leaving
then say goodbye to Alexandra lost
even though she sleep upon your satin
even though she wakes you with a kiss
do not say the moment was imagined
do not stoop to strategies like this
as someone long prepared for this to happen
go firmly to the window
drink it in
exquisite music
Alexandra laughing
you first commitments
tangible again
and you who had
the honor of her evening
and by that honor
had your own restored
say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Alexandra leaving with her lord
----
Leonard Cohen - Alexandra Leaving
----
I find it hard
to describe what we had
to describe what she was
and what I was with her
She was not my first love
nor my last
I loved girls before her
and women after
some of them very deeply
but only she ever penetrated me
not by my choice
nor with my consent
but nonetheless she was there
with that knowing smile
waiting for me to recognize what she knew all along
it was she who crowned me king
anointed me with her adoration
and with a kiss upon my forehead
she forgave my trespasses
she was my redeemer
my queen and consort
in truth,
what little of it I can bear to possess
it is not how much I love her
nor how deeply I love her
that is the least bit remarkable
but how she loved me
