plural

and I suppose I owe yall something nearly resembling an explanation,
but I'm not going to do that, call it an abuse of royal privilege.

The short of it is that a bunch of stuff happened which I am not going into
that led to a few introspective realizations and to me abandoning my journal
while I rather suspected at the time it would not be permanent
my intention was for it to be an extended absence
unfortunately I suck and miss having this space to dump my thoughts

I tried an offline journal but I've never been good at those
and as some of you have noticed, over my spring break
drunkenness and boredom caused a lapse in discipline

so I've decided to stop faking it and be clear about where things stand.

I am officially deabandoning my journal however I have reprioritized the time I spend here
to be a much smaller focus of my time

what this means is that I will be posting and to some degree commenting
but my overall level of interaction will be significantly decreased
[meaning less time both reading and commenting on your journals or in response to your comments]
and for periods of time entirely absent.

This entire situation has been an internal process
and was neither instigated by or in response to any of you.
i.e. dont take any of my recent behavior to reflect on you or my opinion of you
if you were someone I considered a friend, you still are
even if I am, for my own reasons, deciding to limit our interaction
in order to focus on things I need to resolve and prioritize within myself.

In the time I have been gone, I have seen the beginnings of success
in addressing the issues which caused my departure from LJ
so as long as I am able to maintain that priority of focus
I am going to allow myself this space.

obviously I will be balancing the level of interaction
and time spent here based on how I feel it is affecting my day to day life
but in the future I will just simply adjust without all the drama
[my apologies for all that by the way]

so if I am absent for a while, it is just because real life has taken precedence
and you can be sure, I'll be back eventually.