some posts just refuse to be written

[plural]

the Funeral is Thursday at 2pm

I fly home at noon tomorrow
and will be in seattle through sunday

I appreciate the concern many of you have expressed
it has meant a lot to me but I cant find any words

my mind is blank
just a gelantinous blob of emotion

just am dumbfounded and blindsided really
and hurting quite a bit

and
even this little has taken me thirty minutes to write
so I am going to stop trying now
I will speak to you all sometime later

love
me