Last stop wonderland

[plural]

used to ride the blue line
never to wonderland though
I wanted to go there
in my mind I had this idyllic image
a simple act of walking along that beach

never could quite
muster up the will
to take that train
to the end of the line

i never made it to wonderland
maybe you can

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[random-llama.livejournal.com]

Unhappy man, I do believe you've reached the lower part of your rollercoaster ride. Do the incredible heights make these depths worthwhile? Or should we all become zen buddhists to preserve a constant and unbreakable calm.

absolutely

[plural.livejournal.com]

i know
no other way to live
and
would not accept
the cleasing of the blemishes on my soul
if it also took out the shining parts

once i loved a woman
[granted i have loved many women]
[but this one beyond all others]

she was taken from me
in the height of our affections
in one moment
life was perfect
dancing under the stars
with the woman i loved
on a white sand beach in the virgin islands
the next
four hours
watching them perform
cpr on her lifeless body

my heart was shattered that day
but i would never trade
the joy we had
for the pain

i would not trade
a lifetime of misery
for even one of our moments
together

and so
i refute mediocrity
i charge after life
to live it to the fullest
i find the misery
will find us
no matter how we hide
so i am determined to have
those shining moments
to cling to

in my darkest hours