a fabulous night

is
exactly what I had

which is good
because
well

I needed one

It started rather slow

I was at a party
which was rather work related
and was sucking ass

so I bailed

met a couple of friends for drinks
which was an improvement

but
well
not much of one

two of the boys bailed
and
John and I
hung out

some sheep
that thought he was a wolf
thought he would test me
but thought better of it
halfway through

and

we were heading home
ready to call it a night

when John suggested
swinging by the private club
we both frequent

ahh what the fuck I thought
made an illegal left turn
and headed over

we showed up
after last call
ordered some drinks anyway
and started socializing

I was introduced
to a smokey little brunette
by a friend of mine

I could tell she was skeptical
in so far as her being attracted to me anyway
but
I didn't care
I was feeling cocky
so I went with it

I leaned in
lifting her chin with my hand
and
kissed her

at first
she was hesitant
then she responded
and
by the end of the kiss
I could feel her knees going weak

yeah
I am
just that damn good

of course

women are easy
that way

bite a girl
right there
at the back of her jaw
just below her ear
and she'll melt

it is just how it is

and so I did

and

it was good

honestly she was a better kisser than I expected
so
well
we endend up
spending the rest of the night
split between
kissing and dancing

and it was good

I walked her out to her car
we talked
exchanged numbers
and
well
I'll see her again soon

doubt much will come of it
but
well
I can use a distraction
given my thoughts of late

and
the email I just received

I'm not sure
what I think

on one level
it is exactly what I expected
and
on that same level
what I was prepared for

on another level
I am somewhat disappointed
although
that disappoinment is split

half because of the result
half because of the fact
that I can read between the lines
and
well
she hasn't exactly
been honest with me

of couse
I have to remind myself
who the fuck am I
to expect honesty

it isn't like I'm exactly an honest man
true sure
I'm a true fellow
but not exactly honest

in that I mean
I'm incredibly loyal
incredibly faithful
but
truth?
what is truth?

fuck if I know

anyway

I'm drunk
well almost anyway
and
my lips are still stinging
from her teeth

which
as feelings go
is pretty damn good

however empty and hollow
a pleasure it may be

it has been a while
since
I kissed a woman
who knew how to kiss me back
and
well
all other concerns aside

I enjoyed it