Men Die from time to time, and worms eat them, but not for love

fuck

"It could be worse, You could not be you."

*grin*

touche my friend


as for the last post, it wasn't a mood swing
more frustration from a failed attempt at writing a post
I realize it wasn't clear

but
a lot of things have been happening
and I haven't been so clear with myself on them

in other news the redhead is back

its not exactly easy
to describe how this came about
but lets just say
that thanks to modern technology
we had a moment of intentionally anonymous conversation
and found that we were a lot more on the same page
than we thought

anyway tonight

she invited me out on a walk with her pup

it was dark and snowy and we wore some of my goofy head lamps

played with the pup
jumped/slid down a snow covered hill together
then climbed up and did it again

we took a seat on the roof of an old pickup truck
that was sticking out of the snow the rest of it buried
and tossed snowballs up in the air for the pup to catch

she snuggled in close
so
I kissed her
and
she kissed me
then
we kissed
and
it was good

I took her and a very exhausted pup, home
as she had plans to see a movie with her cousin

a nice good bye kiss
and I grabbed some food on the way home

I couldn't tell you what it means nor do I really care

I am just going to lay back and take things as they come
stop thinking so much, just be clear and open with where I am at

that I think was part of the problem
before is that I wasn't clear with myself
and I think it made me hard for her to read

anyway
I am going to curl up with
my cat and a good book
and relax for a while