needful things

obscure things no one needs to know about me

I prefer my toilet paper to unravel from the bottom

when I brush my teeth I wet the brush
add toothpaste wet it again
and the water must be scorching hot

I own a fingernail brush

I am inept with the following things

nail clippers, jump ropes, fax machines

I am in denial about the existence of microwaves

I have been arrested but not convicted
for 14 misdemeanors and 3 felonies

I do not believe in love at first sight

I have no sense of time or relativity to my past
meaning I don't know how long ago events in my life happened
I must make do with estimating the distance
between two known(?) points in my past

I have no favourite anything

my left nipple is pierced

I was born in the loft of a barn
on a lesbian commune
in the Missouri Ozarks
named Dragon Wagon Farm
on a Monday afternoon
outside the barn
was a tree full of cardinals
singing

I am left handed

I wear glasses that I do not need

I sleep with my cell phone beside me

my name means "a light spring rain" in Hebrew

I do not eat sweets

I have 26 scars of various lengths and textures

I am currently under the influence of alcohol

I have two cats Carlisle and Anubis
they are brother and Tabbies
and they take good care of me

I am a perfectionist and therefore hold a low opinion of myself

I have nightmares which awaken me
with screams and cold sweats almost
every night

I am unable or unwilling to trust anyone period

my biggest pet peeve is when people don't
rinse out the bathroom sink after using it
especially when they leave globs of
toothpaste or slivers of hair from shaving

I do not watch television

It has been over a year since I have
had sex with someone who interested me
in anyway other than physically

I like to spoon

and while I am sure there is more
that is all for now

to sleep
perchance to dream
peacefully

the devil's vintner

who among the souls

forgotten and alone

collects their tears

of love unrequited

of hopes crushed

of frustrations unrelenting

each single tear

wrapped with care

in a cherry blossom

the essence of humanity

resides within our tears

mingled

the purity of suffering

the exuberance of joy

What a trophy....

is a cup full of tears