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[plural]

life floods
anger
sadness

this
[terrorism]
is not new to me

but it always
has made me angry
and
depressed

in Israel
such events
are frequent
and
usually
of smaller scale

not that
it makes it
any less
terrifying or
tragic

i have placed
my hands
[uselessly]
over the rent hole
of a terrorists bullet
trying to breathe life
by sheer will alone
into
broken deflated lungs

i am
not good at
being emotional

cold
calculated
excessively rational
is more
my style

how do we come to terms
with this bubbling
emotion

parts of me
wants to rage

to find those
who are responsible
to kill them
their families,
their families friends
the people who owed them money
flatten their houses
level their cities
sow salt into the
earth

other
parts
see the senseless
violence
not only in
yesterdays tragedy
but in
our souls
in response to it

and quite frankly
i do not
know how
to handle it.

How are you handling it?

Comments

dealing

[boonedog.livejournal.com]

I feel lucky because I have a punching bag and gloves in my basement so I have a place to go and vent my rage. Plus, running helps with rage.

For me, just accepting however I feel helps. Realizing I can feel and think whatever I need to - what's important is what I choose to act on.
For me, a lot of rage/grief/fear has come up over stuff not related to this incident but that I've never resolved - so I'm recognizing that and trying to talk to good friends about it.

Talking helps. Crying if you feel like (even if you didn't know anyone there) or not crying if you don't feel like crying (because crying about it does not make you a better person and it's ok to not feel like crying). I guess for me the way I'm dealing is giving myself room to feel whatever I need to feel and assuring myself that's ok.