walking away

[plural]

it is what
I have decided to do
part of me doesn't like it
but
given the whole picture
and
there is much I haven't shared here
mostly because it isn't mine to share

it just seems to make the most sense
tomorrow night
I have been invited to a party
so
I will just move on with life
find a lil floozie to distract me

god knows I have walked away from
more than this
without looking back before

sometimes
its just what you have to do
I suppose in a way
I am just not used to be one
not making the decision

ah well

ce la vie

in a way
she came into my life
at a time when I really needed
companionship of that variety
to not feel alone

so rather than making a mess of this
I think I will just be thankful
for her having been there
when I really needed her
and let her go in peace

not sure if I can do the friends thing
at least not for a while
seeing as
we have way too much chemistry

just being near her
smelling her
gives me an erection

I think it would just be
too confusing for both of us
[or at least me anyway]

so

with a wave and a smile

and one foot in front of the other

I walk on