then let the beggars ride

[plural]

if only

if only

walking alone
with my thoughts

its cold
so cold

the air burns my lungs

frost on the windshields
of the cars parked
nearby

if only

if only

relaxing
watching the fake fire
flicker

feeling its warmth
artificial joy

my cats
pace
feeling
my mood

my eyes
drawn back
to my fetish
my primitive demon
watching me
watching him
his smile
awakens something
primal in me

if only

if only what?

wish I knew