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ended up

staying in tonight

and watching Casablanca

kept getting this wrong feeling

like I was being watched

you know that sort of feeling you get

when you come out of a really creepy horror flick

before you remind yourself

it wasn't real

that's how I felt

watching Casablanca

and I am entirely sober [and have been all night]

very strange but it doesn't stop there

tried to go to sleep and couldn't do it

my mind was just way too aware

it probably would have been easier

if I didn't hear noises downstairs

and know for a fact

that my cat was not down there

it wasn't so much that the random noises worried me

I grew up in a house that made all sorts of noises it should not have been making

when you were home alone in the midst of the night

you learn to ignore them,

to make your peace with them

they stay making their noises down there

and you stay making your noises up here

and everybody is happy

it has worked that way since I was six or seven

sure

you could go check every single one out

but it is always the same

nothing

and eventually checking them out

starts to get under your skin

and that is when you get really freaked out

because it is a simple law of numbers

that if you go to check out some suspicious noise

in a place that shouldn't be making any suspicious noises

too many damn times

eventually there will in fact be a psychotic axe murderer

waiting for you

dead set on turning you into an ass hat


now normally such noises wouldn't even register
or
if they did would be quickly dismissed

but I cant shake that someone standing over my shoulder feeling

and

the last several hours

have just inched by

in uneasy tension waiting for the dawn

every so often my cat will meow

he doesn't like it either

he has himself curled up under my comforter

something I have never seen him do

as much as it seems silly

almost ridiculous to say

I just cant seem to shake the feeling

that

something wrong is coming

and coming fast