Hints and Allegations

[plural]

i am curious
to see myself through your eyes

now do not think me fishing
for compliments
for it is quite the opposite

the situation is this
i meet
your best friend or sister
[or other appropriate female]

she knowing that you know me
comes to you to get further information

what i want to know
what you would say to her

those little talks
we all have with those we love

be for me a mirror
that i might gaze into myself
and
learn something

Comments

[lilybleu.livejournal.com]

So, you would like to see yourself through my eyes... I ask the same of you as well....

I see:

~someone seeking to fill some part of him, with no one and nothing seeming to fill it completely
~a very interesting and wise beyond his years person who has inspired me with his word on more than one occasion
~a boy who worries me with his recent escapades, worrying that he's not quite as okay as he makes himself out to be
~a very pensive and sensitive guy who only wants love and total satisfaction like we all do somewhere inside of us

What would I say if a friend or (more importantly, to me) a sister came to me, asking about you and what I thought of you?

~I would tell her that you are intelligent, inspiring, and intense.

~However~

I would also tell her that you have periods when you have gone on drug and drinking binges (not just marijuana) and that this worries me, that I could never want a friend or more importantly a sister to be involved romantically, on such a deep level, with someone involved with any drugs harsher than marijuana. Other drugs can tear a person and a life apart and I could never want someone I love as I do my friends and my sister to go through that. They are worth much too much for them to have to go through that. It would tear *me* apart to watch them be torn apart. And even if they chose to not become personally involved with the same drugs, they would be forced to watch someone they care for go through it all. Too much pain for anyone person to *choose* to go into that situation.

*******

I say the above not to judge you, because you have every right to take what you want and to do what you want with your boidy, just as I do and each person I know and care for does. I say the above because hearing of your drug and drinking binges (more the drugs ~ cocaine???) frightens me. Frightens me for you, because you are much too smart to become involved with a drug that has been repeatedly shown to destroy people's nasal passages, relationships, and lives. I could never want any of that pain and grief for you. For anyone, actually. Not even those I nearly hate could I wish that for. So, yes, I say everything above because I care about you as I do all of my friends and I worry about you daily. Please don't hate me for my genuine honesty and care. [[[[hugs]]]] <--- There's more where those came from.

Gina

[lesa-marie.livejournal.com]

I could embark on this... but I couldn't say anything not obvious to everyone else as well.

[plural.livejournal.com]

please do

that which often seems
the most obvious
is often
that which i am
most unable to see

you sir...

[anjel.livejournal.com]

are a bastard


ahhh sweet sweet criticism
;)