A most delightful weekend

the subject line says it all really
but
I'll elaborate

I picked up Samantha
from a coffee shop on Capitol Hill
where she was meeting with some of her friends
on Friday afternoon
after a productive trip to one of my favorite bookstores

we swung by her house
relaxed for a bit
before getting all gussied up
to go to my usual other place

I slipped on my tux and
she was in this slinky black dress
with shiny things on it
[*grin*]

my oh my

it was truly scrumptious

and off we went

we played a little blackjack
while nursing my favorite mixed drink
[bourbon and ice]
[yup she drinks bourbon too]
[is it any wonder I adore her?]

then played some poker

at about 5am
she mentioned she was feeling a wee bit drunk
which was strange to her
as she had only had three drinks

I gently reminded her
that the bourbons we were drinking
were doubles
[I couldn't get the miserable bastards at the bar]
[aka some dear friends]
[to serve me a single bourbon if I tried]

anyway
we went home
snuggled and stuff
and went to bed

we got up at eleven
went down to nordstroms
where she had a MAC make-up appointment
apparently it was one of those deals
where you pay for the appointment
and get the cost credited back to you in merchandise
anyway
it was actually my sisters appointment
but my sister couldn't go so she asked Samantha if she wanted to

it was kind of like
walking into the secret lair
of a bizarre cult
but quite interesting to watch the process
from a technical point of view

afterwards we had lunch
on a nice balcony
and went to gasworks park
where we relaxed in the sun
on the lush green grass

each of us reading
our own books
and laying / leaning / nestling against the other

in the late afternoon it started getting windy
and a bit chilly
so we moved to a cafe
had a light snack
a couple of drinks
and continued our reading

I have to say
reading together is one of my favorite quality time activities
whether it is snuggled up on a couch
laying in the grass
or wherever

I love to read
and I love that she loves to read
and I like the little interruptions
of sharing small passages which interest us
during the process

it was a most satisfying afternoon

in the evening
we relaxed at her place
took a brief cuddle/massage/nap break
and talked quite a bit

I shared some things with her
which I've never shared with anyone I've dated
hell I've never shared them with anyone
either a person had first hand knowledge
or they aren't going to find out about it

some of these things
where things I was ashamed of
other where things I understood but still have trouble looking back on them

it was quite frankly
a moment of wide open vulnerability

I've never shared these things
because I've always been afraid of how they would look at me afterwards
but I also realized
that in so many of my relationships
I've kept those secrets hidden because I was sure
that they couldn't love me if they knew
with Sam
I don't want her to love me, if she doesn't know

I care for her more than I imagined I could care for anyone anymore
to be completely honest
and the thought of continuing to feel that doubt
was unbearable

she took it well I think

we hugged and kissed

then went over to my house
as we were planning to sleep there
we decided to watch an episode of boston legal
[one of the few shows I download and something we are both hooked on]
then off to bed

we got up this morning
I was expecting to help my mother
with moving some stuff
but
well
that plan got a bit messed up

so we dallied for a bit
and went on with the rest of our day

we went to the gay pride parade
sat on the curb near the end of the route
and watched it go by

it was quite fun and most amusing

after that we got some lunch
walked around looking at the booths
and people watching

I bought her some cotton candy
and we went down by the fountain
to watch people frolicking in it

were roped into a conversation
about how much it was fair
for a guy to pay his boyfriend
to run down to the fountain
touch it
and run back
sans clothing

we agreed that given the short duration
two hundred and fifty was quite generous
but the boyfriend was holding out for five hundred

anyway
after that we strolled along
and decided to go on some rides
at the seattle center

we did the log run
a ride called music express
and the roller coaster

walked a bit more

played nine holes of mini-golf

and went back to her house
as I had to run soon
to go help mother do the aforementioned moving

it was a relaxing and fun day

after I did the moving
I met up with my friends Nathaniel and Eric
for a boy's night out
which was pretty mellow
but also quite enjoyable

I may be in limbo
I may not have a clue what my long term plans are
but
I'm taking it day by day
and
I'm really enjoying myself doing so

so answer can come later
I'm just going to count my blessings
enjoy the company of a beautiful and amazing woman
and spend time with my friends

it is a rough life but somebody has to live it