of love? what of love? what of I love you?

it would be
too easy
to say
I love you
now

but
I want it
to mean
something
when
I do

I want it
to mean
everything

and
I don't want
anyone
especially
not you

to think
it was said
without due
and thoughtful
consideration

for when I say
I love you

it
will not be
infatuation
but soul bleeding love
and

I
will not
allow
any doubts
of that

wishing for a motorcycle

I want to
go 200 miles an hour
to feel
the fear
the flight of panic

the calm peace
which comes from
knowing
that
my first mistake
would be my last

requiring me
to be
perfect

as
then
I may
be
worthy of
her

(postscript:
this is not in anyway meant to be reflected sucidially,
I happen to love riding at high speeds
for the thrill of perfection, and actually
even I wont exceed 150 anymore
not worth the risk, so do not attempt
to travel at such speeds
without significant amount of riding experience.
it is very dangerous even with appropriate skills
please do not get yourself killed
thank you)