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For such lousy weather, today has been glorius, with but one exception

It looks like my bike may be delayed a week or so. But as today would have been a lame day to ride I didnt mind much.

I was introduced to someone tonight as the devil incarnate? I am not sure exactly how to recieve that....

The party was a drag, so I went to Jillian's with friends tonight, couldnt sink a ball if my life depended on it until the last game, then of course I sink 6 shots straight, figures....

There was this girl there who looked completely miserable, sitting by herself at a table near us, later I saw her arguing with a guy (her boyfriend I assume) he grabbed her arm... she pulled away said something and he walked off, I asked her if she was alright and she said "i dont know".... I offered assistance if she had further trouble and went back to my friends...

I may be many things, most of them negative, but I cannot comprehend the level of insecurity that would allow someone to treat a woman that way (call me old fashioned), nor how any woman would stand for it.

Maybe I am just an insensitive prick (ok so I AM an insensitive prick) but girls, any guy who orders you around, pushes you around, fucks around with other women, is not in love with you, does not respect you, and will not change if you give him a second chance, or a 5th chance for that matter.

In the interest of generally honesty, as I am sure I will over the course of time rant about many things the following is a general list of my failings as a human being:

I am:

insensitive
arrogant
judgemental
self-centered
a lush
cantankerous
a slut
stubborn
close-minded
elitest
cold-hearted
jaded
cocky
high-handed
immoral
unpleasant
unethical

I cheat on my taxes
Have warrants for my arrest in 11 states (mostly for unpaid speeding tickets)
am currently out on bail for assaulting a police officer ( 7 grand in legal fee doesnt that suck, of course since I had the cash to pay for it, my new ducati and a new wardrobe its really not that bad) which is a long story that sounds much worse than it actually is... and since I am sure no one actually reads this, I wont bother going into it, suffice to say that I have no worries of it even going to trial.
and I have broken every one of the ten commandments....without getting caught.

On the positive side....

I can be: (when I decide its worth the bother or I want to sleep with you)

Kind
Caring
Empathetic
Responsible
Charming
Generous - this is one exception, I am almost always generous to a fault.
Entertaining


I have never cheated on anyone I was in a monogamous relationship
I have never screwed over a friend (isnt that nice, the best things about me are things I havent done)

There let all be damned it has been inscribed.

I generally aspire to despise 90% of the people I meet, and merely dislike the rest, of course if you are so unfortunate to be one of the few people I enjoy, I pity you.

The Holy Trinity - Beauty - Lust - Affluence

Today the weather was once more beautiful, and once again I despaired, in existential want, for my ducati. To ease my mind I spent the afternoon creating floral arrangements, and placing them in various places around my house. I love the smell of fresh cut flowers...

I have three gods, which I worship in the order of their significance.

Beauty.
Lust.
Affluence.

The search and experience of beauty fuels my soul, wherever it be contained, whether hidden or disguised, in creation or decay, there is no higher cause.

Lust - the driving force behind all action, whether sexual, material, or spiritual, lust provides the motivation for excellence.

Affluence -Those who disparage affluence merely are lacking it. Those far more expierenced than I in affluence, have likened it to vaseline - it makes everything go just a little bit smoother.