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Apr. 6th, 2009 04:17 am
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the date on friday went

well

into extra innings
as one might say

I find myself
intrigued
compelled

even though
I realize there is no future in it

she smells
no
she tastes like heaven

and
I

I am intoxicated

of course
I would be lying if I said this was anything new

however
what is new
what is different

is that I cannot read her
not
like I read everyone else

most women
most people
tell me their entire stories
without words
without my having to ask

it is merely written on their faces

usually
sleeping with a woman is a foregone conclusion
not because I am so incredibly handsome
[although of course that helps]
but
because they telegraph it

it is as if they say
push this button
[helpfully labeled "b"]
and I'll sleep with you

and of course
being the helpful sort
I dutifully press that button

I think
perhaps
I may be in trouble

you see
I can read her emotions
that is to say
I know what she is feeling
as she feels it

what I can't discern
and what makes her so enigmatic to me
is the lines between those emotions

normally
I can read it like a story
but with her
not at all

I can tell when
she is pleased
she is aroused
she is touched

but the story eludes me

I, quite simply can't read her that way.

I can read specific emotions
but not the process as it relates to them

I had the opportunity to sleep with her
but I declined
choosing instead
to play a game I like to call

"lets see how much fun we can have without having sex"

and

fun we did have

one part of me thinks
perhaps hopes
that I may have met my match

after all she did have the same teacher
that I did

the cynic in me
suggests that I merely
haven't found the cypher
the code
that will lay her bare to me

and to that thought
I say

so what

I have always been a quixotic bastard
and now
no more so (or less so) than usual

but I find myself
intrigued
amused
perhaps even
intoxicated

Date: 2009-04-06 05:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zaiah.livejournal.com
Heh. 'Awwww...'

I would love for you to find a partner. I am glad that your natural tendency towards optimism occasionally overcomes your history. *nuzz*

Date: 2009-04-06 10:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] xp00tx.livejournal.com
intoxication is one of my most favorite emotions. for me it tends to be fleeting, but those moments when you're being tested, things taste so good...those are what life is all about.

Date: 2009-04-07 04:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
I have to agree, it is most delicious.

And yes most fleeting, although for me much the reason why it is so fleeting is that I tend to get bored with people (women in particular) after a while as I usually know what they are thinking before they do.

Of course, I've never been much of one for possessing things, I much prefer taking the ride.

Date: 2009-04-09 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] asrei.livejournal.com
you should email me.... misslomas @gmail. com

Date: 2009-04-10 09:20 am (UTC)

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