I, Lucifer

Mar. 20th, 2009 11:51 pm
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"I can't tell you how good I was feeling. Looking at things like daffodils and clouds is wonderful. Looking at things like daffodils and clouds having just spent £372 on dinner and dropped two tabs of ecstasy in preparation for a five-hour shift with XXX-Quisite's friendliest platinum blonde double-act, that's really wonderful.

I know what the majority of you think about all this. All this sex and money and drugs. You think: people who live like that never end up happy. You need to think that in just the way men with small penises need to think that size doesn't matter. It's understandable. The rich, the famous, the big-dicked the slim-and-gorgeous - they incite an envy so urgent that you can escape it only by translating it into pity.

People who live like that never end up happy. Yes, you're right. But neither do you. And in the meantime, they've had all the sex and drugs and money."

Date: 2009-03-21 07:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lima-pcp.livejournal.com
So... When are you buying that yacht?

Date: 2009-03-21 04:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geminiwench.livejournal.com
Richard Branson looks like the happiest motherfucker on the planet.

All thanks to being filthy stinking rich.
And the drugs and sex (and private islands) that come with it.

I may not have dropped ecstasy to fuck a couple of porn-star lookin' escort girls till the suncame up,.. but thanks to partying like a poor person, I've done pure molly and spent the high playing school yard games with friends, culminating in receiving a massage from 5 people simultaneously.

If I were rich, my life wouldn't be perfect, but it would sure as hell be easier and I would get to spend more time fucking and feeling good.
I don't see a downside.
Then again, I'm genetically happy I think.
Even when life falls apart... and I feel like giving up.
I am still happier than 40% of the people I know.

Give me free money, get me high on something that just makes me want to smile and get fucked like I deserve,..
Well,.. I'm in outer space.
I'm looking down on happiness.

I'd probably be about matched with where you are on the scale.
I envy the shit out of you AND Richard Branson.
Assholes.

But, right now I've got a couple hundred in the bank, my debt is manageable, I have some Humbolt green, a friend promising to fuck me for half a day and I get to spend tonight sitting in a booth being on the radio.
Except for not having my own tropical paradise and not having perfect tits, well,.. it feels totally ass backwards to be envious at all right now. But you, sir, have my envy anyways.. because you deserve it.

Date: 2009-03-21 07:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marieoroumania.livejournal.com
Whoa, another radio person?

Date: 2009-03-21 09:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geminiwench.livejournal.com
I'm just lucky enough to have the best volunteer gig ever, working for Community Radio here in Spokane. It means running a local spotlight show (Im pitching another show, soon) and just trying to get the word out and donations in. You?

Date: 2009-03-21 09:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marieoroumania.livejournal.com
Ah fun! Very cool! Oh, I just love radio. I cut my teeth, almost literally, on a razor/tape editing system and learned from some of the greats of the 50s and 60s.

I'm a radio journalist, or rather I was before I skipped out to go back to San Diego to go to college. Back when I was "somebody," as I love to say, I worked for NPR and CNN and a couple stations in Los Angeles. I love radio though - everything about it except the low pay and the current layoffs - and look forward to going back when it's viable (and when I have a college degree and can demand more money, MUHHAHAHAHA!!)

But even though I haven't run a board in months I still love radio and everything about it. And I love gossipping and talking about anything and everything to do with it.

Date: 2009-03-21 09:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geminiwench.livejournal.com
NPR, my kind of lady!

I got into radio because I love music,..
Which is why Im doing it for free at KYRS instead of doing it for money at Clear Channel.

I love the feeling of reaching out live and getting immediate responses. Of being alone and yet talking to many. (Like blogging, actually;) Of mixing a really great show, of making it run smooth, of not being able to backpeddle and committing to the moment.
The spirit around radio, ESPECIALLY community radio is so wonderful, too. Lots of talkers and lots of nerds,.. the people who do it for the glory go somewhere else pretty quickly and never look back except in the nostalgia of the asshole.

Date: 2009-03-22 05:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marieoroumania.livejournal.com
I totally agree. Community is what radio is all about but it's been lost in the CC era. Oh well, at least they are bankrupt now! I love community radio too - it is the spirit of what radio is supposed to be.

That's what I love about radio too! I can be alone, in a little room, and yet people are interacting with me. That is so cool. I geek out about it all the time. Maybe I will go back part time soon... hmmm...

Date: 2009-03-21 10:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
Oddly enough, that was merely an excerpt from a book I am reading, titled "I, Lucifer" which amused me greatly.

It parallels nicely with much of my point of view and my life, although, I have little interest in escorts.

Date: 2009-03-21 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geminiwench.livejournal.com
I've heard your exploits,.. I was surprised to think of you paying. Also, the transition to using British pounds. hehe.

Date: 2009-03-21 11:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
Oh I have no moral objection to paying for sex, nor is it even a question of distaste, rather its a function of consumerism.

Rather it is simply that what they are selling, I do not want and what I want, they can't sell.

As for currency, I'll use whichever is appropriate although you are correct, it would be translated to dollars when posted here.

Date: 2009-03-22 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] budhaboy.livejournal.com
Heh.

I was a little shocked at this post... Not because of the drugs, or the hookers, or the booze, or the point of view... For my money, the give away was the boasting... that sort of thing, in my experience is beneath you...

Date: 2009-03-22 11:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
indeed sir, you know me well. While I can't be certain that I'm entirely above boasting, my particular variant of it is much more introspective.

Date: 2009-03-22 11:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] budhaboy.livejournal.com
Yeah, I think boasting was the wrong word... The idea I was trying to communicate was this:

You'd have no qualms letting the world know about your actions, you just wouldn't put any weight on it's significance. example:

Plural: I killed a man today for sport. It was way more challenging than I'd have thought... about like killing tigers in India.

Poor imitation of Plural: Can you believe I killed a man for sport today? When I was killing killing tigers in India it was MUCH harder.

In the first case, everthing astonishing is mentioned, communicated entirely in stride and as a matter of fact. In the second, it's the audacity of the act that is at the center.

Date: 2009-03-22 01:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
As I said above, you know me well.

Date: 2009-03-22 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] budhaboy.livejournal.com
You should bottle that style of writing, brother. You could do it well.

Date: 2009-03-23 07:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
I'm not entirely sure what you mean.

Date: 2009-03-23 08:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] budhaboy.livejournal.com
Not being a writer in any meaningful way, by 'bottle' I meant try to figure out a way to capture that method of writing... where your focus stays on the introspection, and not on the audacity of the act and then apply it to a novel. It may sell well... if you could apply it to characters who are aristocratic by class, but searching for a greater truth. It'd probrably sell well.

Date: 2009-03-23 08:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
as for capturing the method of writing, it is simply how I write, how I perceive so that shan't be difficult.

The idea has occured to me, writing a novel (not more than that but just one), I'm actually about halfway through fleshing out the premise, of course, I'm not really sure how I could go about being published and still maintain the privacy I prefer.

These days it seems to be all about book tours and guest appearances on television shows, neither of which seems very appealing to me.

I suppose my gift is not one of being without boasting, or even one of being particularly introspective but rather balancing both of those with an unhealthy dose of humility.

Date: 2009-03-23 09:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] budhaboy.livejournal.com
... it is simply how I write...

That is clear... but maybe I give writers too much credit in thinking that they consciously use things like voice and style much in the same way a director would use cuts and lighting to manipulate the feel of the story. It seems as though you'd have to dome sort of critical analysis of it first to use it perfectly at will...

I go back to those 'doncabfab writing contests' back in the early days of LJ... Not to say you've got anything like that style, rather it was an interesting exercise in emulating the style. There was a time back then, when I thought I'd have a chance at writing I'd really try to develop such things. Then I had the idiotic idea of having H read something I wrote, saw what she could do to it, and simply gave up. It felt, I'm sure what it'd feel like to her if she ever took it in her head to give that whole 'statistics thing' a whack. You, on the other hand, have actual talent.

Date: 2009-03-22 01:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] folterte.livejournal.com
So remeniscent of Frederic Beigbeder's Holiday in a Coma, seems now I have something new to read.
<3

Date: 2009-03-22 05:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plural.livejournal.com
Author's name is glen duncan. its a quick read but I'm enjoying it

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